I want to witness. That has become a scary word hasn’t it? When I was a kid, they used to make us go to flea markets and rock concerts and “witness”. It was pretty awful. We got emotionally beat-up. I think we are called to be witnesses, but I think integrity should be put back in the word.
One can only give witness to what one have seen or experienced. All of the references in the bible to witnessing are people telling about what they personally witnessed. I did not see Jesus born in a manger, dying on a cross, nor have I seen him raised from the dead. I teach what is written in the bible. I believe those things by faith. I witness to my faith. I witness to the truth I see in scripture and the experiences of my own relationship with Christ.
The strength of a witness is not that someone knows the facts in toto. When one witness claims to know it all, they could be the hero or the villain. A witness claiming to have seen the accused make threats, purchase the gun, drive to the victims house, who watched through the window as the crime was committed and saw the accused bury the murder weapon, could be telling the truth or he could be the murder. But if ten people each see just a little part of that story and you can string all of those witnesses together on the stand – You have the guy! Nobody is making anything up to fill in the gaps. The gaps are filled in by other people who don’t even understand how crucial their witness is.
That is one of the reasons I believe the bible. Moses writing about the Garden of Eden had no idea the whole story that was to come. The people in the Old Testament did not understand the significance of the slain lambs. But I see the same story of God, these themes of God’s love, his covering the nakedness of man all though the pages of the bible.
So today, I am going to do a little witnessing.
My goal is to encourage us in the truth. Getting to the truth often requires the stripping away of layers of untruth. Everybody signs up for that in abstract, but we all have untruths that comfort us. It is a painful process, even if it is healing.
I am a Christian. I call myself a Christians because I have put my faith and trust in Jesus Christ. I have entered into a wildly unique relationship, the daily workings of which are not well documented, explained or at all easily understood. I live a life of faith, in and by the Spirit of God, but although I can say that, it is beyond me to explain it.
By faith, I believe there is a God. By faith, I believe that Jesus Christ laid his life down on the cross. By faith, I believe that my sins, faults and shortcomings, have been forgiven and that I have been given a new life of freedom and love in relationship with the one-true-living-God of the Universe.
I, like many, believe that God gave us the bible, and that it is a holy and wholly unique book. It tells of the great history of relationship between God and man and it tells of our great hope for the future. It speaks of the fall of man, the desert wanderings, the Law, the birth of Christ, his death burial and resurrection and his ascension into Heaven. It also tells us that life will not go on like this indefinitely. That one day Christ will return and we will see him as he really is. That this mystery will be made clear and that we will be in his presence in a way that we do not experience in our everyday lives right now.
Hopefully we do experience him, but the bible makes clear that one day we will experience him as he really is, that we will know, even as he now knows us.
In my experience, as we come together and read the bible and speak of its wonders; sometimes, most of the time probably, something gets lost in translation.
Reading the history of how people wrestled in relationship with God or reading of a future to come – sometimes I get confused. Am I to function like the people of the Old Testament? Am I living in the time when Jesus is fully revealed? What is it to live in a post-fall, post-Law, post-Calvary, post-resurrection, post-ascension, but pre-return in Glory time? The majority of our bible teaches about a different time, either in the past or that is to come.
Jesus sums things up with the imperative, “Love God and Love People”. We are told to go and make disciples, but we did not get a whole lot of instruction about this life or how we are supposed to relate with God. Evidently “faith” is to be the sinewy tissue that spans Heaven and Earth.
I am to live a life of faith, believing in things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1
1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
That word “certain” is usually translated “evidence”. Faith specifically relates to the unseen. Faith is not knowledge. For faith to exist, it has to be cantilevered over the gulf, the peril, of doubt.
Our churches don’t seem to place any value on doubt. The critical or the skeptical mind somehow is seen as a threat to the church. But if we are a community of faith, then by definition, doubt is also our fellow traveler. Not that we do not believe, but that we believe in spite of our doubts.
That is why we sound so shrill and anti-intellectual when we scoff at those who doubt. We laugh at those who “don’t get it”, all the while lying about the extent to which we “get it”. God is seen as Machiavellian in nature. Somehow he must be honored when we lie; the truth not being a good enough sales pitch.
I want to start a movement to change the Disciple Thomas’ nickname. Rather than calling him “Doubting Thomas”, with its disparaging connotation, I think we should begin to call him, “Honest Thomas”. He wasn’t the only one in the room with doubts; he was just the only one brave enough to say anything.
You know the story. Jesus rises from the dead and Thomas says he will not believe that it is him until he places his finger in Jesus’ wounds.
John 20:25-28
25 So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord.” But he said to them, “Unless I see in his hands the print of the nails, and place my finger in the mark of the nails, and place my hand in his side, I will not believe.”
26 Eight days later, his disciples were again in the house, and Thomas was with them. The doors were shut, but Jesus came and stood among them, and said, “Peace be with you.”
27 Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side; do not be faithless, but believing.”
28 Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!”
I am quoting from the Revised Standard Version. The NIV really is not a great translation here. We have this history of calling him “Doubting Thomas”, so they oblige by using the word doubt, but that is not really what Jesus said. The Greek text records Jesus as saying, “ apistos alla pistos”. Jesus said, “be not without faith, but have faith”. He uses the word we translate as “faith” and its antonym.
The difference is important. He is not saying that to be skeptical of the miraculous is wrong. He is saying, “Have faith that I can do the miraculous!”
Then Jesus speaks of us in John 20:29:
29 Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet believe.” (RSV)
We are in this wildly unique relationship: there is a lot of history, there is a lot of future hope, but in this present age, there remains a lot of mystery. We don’t like mystery. We want God to quietly stand down as we judge one another, as we are compassionless toward the poor, as we turn a blind eye to the fatherless, but we expect him to snap to attention when we pray for a parking space closer to the front door of Wal-Mart.
What if God is above us? What if his mind is higher than our minds? What if to our intellect he seems silent for a time? Well, we just don’t allow that.
If God seems silent, we will provide him with a voice.
We do this in several ways:
- Many follow false prophets. Some use circa 1611 King James English in an attempt to sound godly. Others will use any dialect you want as long as you send them money.
- We use the bible like a Quija Board. I want to know what the original writer was actually saying to the original audience in the then usage of the original language. In other words, “What did he mean when he said that?” Why we think that it is more spiritual to take the bible out of context than it is to take a street sign out of context is totally beyond me.
- When God doesn’t answer or when we don’t like his answer, we have an incredible ability to justify our plans as God’s plans. In the absence of an answer from God, I have no problem going forward with my plans, but that is very different from saying that they are God’s specific plans.
We have been sold this bill of goods that if the church cannot explain away all mystery, then we are irrelevant. That if the church does not speak a new authoritative revelation from God on a regular basis, then the church has no purpose. Never mind the possibility of being a supportive community of faith. That we might hold up the arms of the weak, care for one another as Christ did the church and be a testimony, a witness, of lives changed by faith in an ever present but unseen God. That even though we do not know everything or get everything right, we by faith and by the power of the Holy Spirit express love to others, unconditionally and without merit, just as God has expressed that love, His love, towards us.
Can we have faith enough to find truth in the midst of mystery, or must we avoid mystery so that we can seem competent declaring a false truth?
When I was a kid, I went to a church that was big into magic and very little into mystery. To be honest my Sunday school teachers spoke to us as if God had just given the Law to Moses and nothing else had ever been said about it. It was simpler that way and easy to explain.
We were to be good soldiers in the army of God, marching through the wilderness of temptation, keepers of the law to the Glory of our God. There was little talk of redemption, liberty, freedom or grace. Only that Jesus would come back soon to punish those who did not honor him by keeping his law.
The past was defined by the giving of God’s law and the future was defined by reward for the faithful and the punishment of those who flouted God’s law. Today, the here-and-now was primarily defined by discipline, not consorting with sinners and awaiting the final judgment. Jesus might forgive you of your sinful past, but that just gave you entry to the opportunity to earn your way into Heaven.
We spoke of the triumphant or victorious Christian life so much that one dared not mention the difficulty of the journey, our personal failings, our private thought lives and the temptations that refused to subside.
And though I spoke to God faithfully in daily prayer, he did not seem to respond with the vigor or the immediacy that the traveling evangelists said he would. I prayed for my brother to walk, but he didn’t. I prayed for my mother not to die, but she did. I prayed that I would be a good man, but I wasn’t….
It came to a head for me when I was a sophomore in college. I was back at my home church functioning as a youth intern and participating in a discipleship training class. We were expected to abstain from a myriad of worldly pleasures and concentrate on spiritual disciplines such as fasting and memorizing scripture. Eventually the day came when we were to be tested. We were to recite the scriptures that we had memorized and give account for our fidelity to these spiritual disciplines.
My roommate and I gave a quick look to each other a couple of hours before we were to give account. We jumped in his car, drove a couple of hours away, drank ourselves into oblivion and slept in the car. I didn’t go back to the church for several weeks. I realized that I was never cut out for leadership in a church.
I got married and soon my wife became the beneficiary of my hit and miss faith. I believed in God, but everything – anything – seemed more relevant to me than the proclamation of a victorious Christian life that saw little victory.
I believe that I would have increasingly attempted to walk away from the faith if it were not for the ruthless record of scripture. As I began to read the bible for myself I found that almost all of the major bible characters, the heroes of the faith, also would not have been cut out for leadership at my old church. I might not have had much in common with the sinless superstars that led the discipleship class, but I had a lot in common with Moses, David, Peter, and Honest Thomas. We shared a fallen DNA. I might not be able to pass the discipleship training class at my old church, but I looked a lot like the disciples that Jesus handpicked.
And then, I found the Psalms, more specifically the psalms of lament; theologically they saved my life. I could recite, the 23rd Psalm:
Psalm 23:1-4
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
It is a beautiful psalm, but I was taught it as a promise. But if it were a promise, no one ever taught me about the promises God evidently made in psalms like the 88th Psalm:
Psalm 88:3-8, 13-14
3 For my soul is full of trouble and my life draws near the grave.
4 I am counted among those who go down to the pit; I am like a man without strength.
5 I am set apart with the dead, like the slain who lie in the grave, whom you remember no more, who are cut off from your care.
6 You have put me in the lowest pit, in the darkest depths.
7 Your wrath lies heavily upon me; you have overwhelmed me with all your waves.
8 You have taken from me my closest friends and have made me repulsive to them. I am confined and cannot escape;
13 But I cry to you for help, O LORD; in the morning my prayer comes before you.
14 Why, O LORD, do you reject me and hide your face from me?
No one ever taught me to stand on that promise!
My mother, wishing me only the best, taught me to memorize the 1st Psalm:
Psalm 1:1-6
1 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.
2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.
3 And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.
4 The ungodly are not so: but are like the chaff which the wind driveth away.
5 Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.
6 For the LORD knoweth the way of the righteous: but the way of the ungodly shall perish. (KJV)
But to be honest it was psalms like the 22nd Psalm that let me know that in spite of the terror in my heart, I was still not outside of the grip of God’s grace.
Psalm 22:1-2
1 My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Why art thou so far from helping me, from the words of my groaning?
2 O my God, I cry by day, but thou dost not answer; and by night, but find no rest. (RSV)
I said that my purpose was to encourage us. I personally find great encouragement in the truth of God. That he is good, that he loves with a capacity that I do not possess, that he is nearer than a brother and faithful in our time of need.
I also believe that His ways are higher than my ways and that His thoughts are higher than my thoughts. That he alone is God and that I am not. Thus neither do I control him, nor am I overlooked by him.
May we be a true community of faith. The Christian journey as I have experienced, being in relationship with God, is a symphony that is often played like a solo. But, I believe it to be music to the ears of my Father.
May our commonality be the acknowledgement of our desperate need of a Savior. May our strength be the honest reflection of his love. May our worship be both in Spirit and in Truth.